I have a feeling that since the relaunch and reorientation of this blog I may come off as somewhat pompous or arrogant (sometimes ironically so… look, I started this sentence with “I”!) and I want to kind of explain why this is so.
- This is my writing style. Deal with it.
- I am pretty arrogant.
- Suck it down.
- I’m just kidding, I love you guys.
I say stuff like “I never want to work for anyone” not because I think having an employer is stupid, but because I don’t want to be “employed” and because I know I don’t have to be employed. I’m not gonna waste your time explaining my entire journey or whatever, but over the years I realized that the concept of me having a “job” or a “career” just sounds ridiculous. I’ve always been weird, I’ve always done my own thing (something which my teenage self never enjoyed much, but it was for the better) and I have to keep doing that because I only gots one life to live, baby. I’ve lived a relatively privileged life (compared to most Earthlings), I’m lucky enough to have been born with an unusually large amount of intelligence (thanks mom!) and have this internet thing which I believe to be some form of witchcraft. I learn things quickly, and WordPress is crazy awesome with a great community that is always willing to help. Domain and hosting costs are practically nothing.
So I’m trying to do this. But I’m not just trying, I am forcing myself to be confident and doing everything I can to make this happen.
Because then I will be happy for the rest of my life, and no laws will have to have been broken. Can’t ask for much more than that.
Happy Holidays, all!
2010: The Year I Make Contact… WITH DESTINY
After having celebrated another collective swing around our sun (and an individual one a few weeks earlier) and having sufficiently healed from my burns to be able to type again, it’s time to get to work. I was reminded of the scope of my ambitions by this Adii Rockstar post, and yet I am still not afraid. Maybe it’s because I’m arrogant, maybe it’s because the little income I am generating from my projects is actually going to pay for my textbooks for next semester, or maybe it’s because I’ve got the support of my ever-so-skeptical girlfriend, but I am confident.
I have set extremely high goals for myself this year, both in the level of my productivity (which has never been particularly high) and the results thereof. I do not consider these goals to be entirely unrealistic, but while reaching them would be fantastic I would be pretty happy with myself if I got even a tenth of the way there.
I think I’ll be okay. I have been working on a new project lately which isn’t all that creative or anything but makes good use of a domain which was just wasting away. All this time I was supposed to have been studying for a couple of finals I have this week, and now that this week is here I guess I should put those projects on hold. After those exams I’m going right back to work though. I’ll have about three weeks until the next semester starts, so I want to put in as much work as I can. The plan is to launch this latest site on the 11th, and then work on everything else, including getting LazyLoading to work on Physics-Games dot Net so it doesn’t take 600 years to load.
This will be a good year for me. Very productive, very profitable. I’m not gonna hope for stuff because that just activates the lazy part of my brain, but being able to take the ladyfriend somewhere nice and sunny this summer would be very nice indeed.